From the Top of the Mountain

            “From the Top of the Mountain” was preached at Lawrence Road Presbyterian Church on Sunday, February 21, 2016. Inspirations for this sermon included scripture, personal experiences, commentaries, and discussions covering biblical interpretations & studies.

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Genesis 15:1-12, 17-18

1 After these things the word of the Lord came to Abram in a vision, “Do not be afraid, Abram, I am your shield; your reward shall be very great.” 2 But Abram said, “O Lord God, what will you give me, for I continue childless, and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?” 3 And Abram said, “You have given me no offspring, and so a slave born in my house is to be my heir.” 4 But the word of the Lord came to him, “This man shall not be your heir; no one but your very own issue shall be your heir.” 5 He brought him outside and said, “Look toward heaven and count the stars, if you are able to count them.” Then he said to him, “So shall your descendants be.” 6 And he believed the Lord; and the Lord reckoned it to him as righteousness.

7 Then he said to him, “I am the Lord who brought you from Ur of the Chaldeans, to give you this land to possess.” 8 But he said, “O Lord God, how am I to know that I shall possess it?” 9 He said to him, “Bring me a heifer three years old, a female goat three years old, a ram three years old, a turtledove, and a young pigeon.” 10 He brought him all these and cut them in two, laying each half over against the other; but he did not cut the birds in two. 11 And when birds of prey came down on the carcasses, Abram drove them away.

12 As the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram, and a deep and terrifying darkness descended upon him.

17 When the sun had gone down and it was dark, a smoking fire pot and a flaming torch passed between these pieces. 18 On that day the Lord made a covenant with Abram, saying, “To your descendants I give this land, from the river of Egypt to the great river, the river Euphrates.”

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I once asked myself the question, “Am I afraid of heights?” It just so happened that I asked myself this question as I was riding a ski lift up a mountain. In that moment everything became just a bit scarier. The ski lift seemed just a bit more shaky. The mountain seemed just a bit higher. And the probability of me falling to my death seemed just a little bit more likely. Just a little bit. I rode with this newfound fear until I arrived at the top of the mountain. It was then that I easily exited the ski lift and looked out across the view. I saw the beautiful peaks covered with snow and trees and people and exhilaration. It was in that moment, I realized I was – in fact – not actually afraid of heights. I have never been afraid of heights. Sure I am afraid of other things but not heights. Rather I realized I was afraid of something else: it was the feeling of something foreign to me. I had questioned something new during a time of unknown expectation, and it scared me. That and I was being just a little bit dramatic. Again, just a little a bit. However, I realized it was in this moment that I gave a notice to my fear, and for just one small moment as I rode the ski lift; I let the fear control my thoughts. But here I was, I was on the top of the mountain – top of the world really – and that was a beautiful sight. The view from the top was worth the fear I had to endure. Anyway, I was now more afraid of getting down the mountain. I learned that day it’s a lot easier to go up a mountain on a ski lift than it is to go down the mountain on your skis, or in my case, my back, my knees, my stomach, even my face. Despite my difficulty getting down the mountain, I learned something that day. If you don’t let fear control you and you embrace it for what it is worth, fear can bring on quite the promise.

We are already in the second week of Lent. The second week! Now I don’t know about all of you, but some part of me is on the verge of just begging God to slow it all down. I’m sure a part of it is this is my last semester of seminary before I graduate in May and I’m slightly worried about the things to come, but I know another part is I want to live in this moment and take full advantage of what is happening around me, right here and right now. Eventually we will get to Maundy Thursday – and we know this will come sooner than we think – but when we get to Maundy Thursday, we will spend the evening sitting in darkness. Then the next day we’ll have Good Friday where we’ll spend the afternoon siting in silence. The promise of Easter will come that Sunday where we will spend the day rejoicing and celebrating and lifting up God’s glory to the heavens, but some part of me is not ready for the promise of Easter yet.  Some part of me is content to sit in the darkness and in the silence. It is not because I don’t want to Easter to come – I want Easter to come, I need Easter to come, I am actually beyond thankful Easter will come – but it’s because I’m still wrestling with these fears and I need a moment and a time and a place to sit down and lift them up to God. We know the promise is coming, but right now I believe we could all use a moment to just acknowledge our fears and embrace them for what they are worth.

That is how I believe Abram felt in our passage today. In Genesis 15, we have a back-and-forth exchange of words between Abram – later better known as Abraham – and God. This is not the first time for God to talk to Abram. In every previous occasion, God had promised to give Abram prosperity and land. What makes this time notable, however, is this is the first time that Abram talks back to God. The two actually held a conversation. But it makes me ask the question: why? Why did Abram talk back? What is the fundamental issue that brings Abram to speak? Why this time?

I ask myself, “How afraid he must have been…” To question God and to question life. To question his visions and to question the promises. How afraid… Afraid when God comes to him in the night. Afraid as he looked out among the infinity of the stars. Afraid of sacrificing the animals. Afraid as the birds of prey came down on the carcasses. Afraid as the deep and terrifying darkness descended upon him. Afraid of the smoking fire pot and the flaming torch.  Afraid as God promised him descendants of multitudes and afraid as God promised him a new land of uncertainty. Most of all, afraid because he did not yet understand what was coming or how it would come to him. I imagine Abram – surrounded and overwhelmed by his fear – taking a moment to embrace all that was happening around him. Hesitantly but still surely responding to God’s call – to God’s promise.

Now we know God’s promise to Abram comes in two parts. One, Abram will be given an heir and a multitude of descendants. Two, Abram will be given land “from the river of Egypt to the great river, the river Euphrates.” However, these two promises won’t be given right then and there to Abram, and so they don’t quite make sense. At least not yet anyway. William Yarchin, a professor of Biblical Studies at Azusa Pacific University, writes it like this, “Possessing no actual heir, Abram is given not a substitute or even a son, but rather a prophetic experience of a promise that there will be one. Owning no actual estate to pass on, Abram is given no possession but a covenant commitment that the vast land will ultimately go to his descendants.” Let me put that into my own words: “Abram, you don’t have a descendent. Abram, you also don’t have an inheritance to give to the descendent you don’t have. And although you don’t know when, where, why, or how this will happen, someday – one day – you will have both in abundance.”

It is in this where we see a fundamental issue that we can relate to in our passage: it is the problem of making sense out of divine revelation when it doesn’t make sense in the actual life of the recipient. In other words, when we don’t understand how God is acting in our lives, we become afraid. That is the cause of our fear, but it is through this fear where we can learn about the promise of what God has done and what God will do. But to do that, we must first acknowledge that we do – in fact – have fears. Just take a moment, ask yourself, “What are my fears? And where is God in my struggle?”

What are you afraid of? Is there something you’re afraid of upcoming in the next couple of years? How about this next year? The next month? Even tomorrow? Are we afraid of death? The end of something? The death of a job? The death of a passion? How about physical death? The death of a loved one? Or the death of one’s self? Or are we afraid of new life? A birth?  A moment of transition? The start of something new? Even the resurrection? Do we pray for good health, good fortune, and a good life? Are we afraid of what happens if the “good” doesn’t always come? What are you afraid of?

It is okay. It is okay to be afraid. God is with you. God is with you in your fears, and God is with you in the promise to follow.

I don’t know what your fears are. We all have are own. You have yours, and I have mine. Some are rational and some may seem irrational, but it doesn’t mean they are not true. They are there; they are present. While I may not know what your fears are, I do know this. God is with you in your struggle. That’s the meaning of Lent. God is right there with you in your struggle. Our God knows our fears. Our God has felt our fears. Our God knows the feeling of going up and experiencing something new. It was in the waters of the Jordan where the baptism took place in the form of a rising dove. It was on the top of the mountain while the Lord was transfigured before the eyes of three of his disciples. It was on the cross where nails pierced our God’s flesh as he was lifted high into the air. Each was a moment of great fear, and I have to believe that the fully human Christ was afraid. But Christ isn’t only fully human, he is also fully divine. Therefore, I also have to believe that while Christ may have been afraid, Christ was also the promise telling us this, “Remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

Abram was lifted up in moments of fear. Christ was lifted up in moments of fear. You too shall be lifted up in your moments of fear. This is the view from the top of the mountain!

Our fears may not make sense. The divine revelation of God may not make sense. But that is okay. It is okay because at least we know God is present with us at all times, especially in our moments of fear. It is okay to doubt and to ask questions. It is even okay to want a clarification to what is going on around you. After all, Abram did all these things. But where there is no doubt or no question is whether God promises to secure your future and be present with you during your times of fear and uncertainty. This much is true.

Sometimes the way that God works in our lives is hidden. We do not understand it then. We might actually never understand it. We might even fear where it will take us. But while God’s work in the world may be hidden at times, it is also unstoppable. It is an unstoppable forced filled with love and grace and life. It is filled with wonder and glory. It is filled with promise. Even if we doubt this promise due to the midst of overwhelming situations, God will deliver. Even if we have trouble believing the promise due to our fear, God makes the promise even better. The resurrection? The new life found in Christ? This has been promised to you! This is no greater gift extended to you! Believe and hear the good news! Do not let your fear control you. Embrace it for what its worth. It means something is coming. It means you will be lifted up. Soon you will see the view from the top of the mountain!

          It is okay to be afraid, but if we let of the feeling of going up the mountain stop us, we lose the beauty of the view from the top. In the same sense, if we ignore our fear, we lose the strength found in the promise. Hold onto the place in which your fears come. It is telling you something. It is telling you this. Your future has been secured by a covenant made with God promised in the resurrection. Thanks be to God. Amen.

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Holy God, we give you our highest thanks and praise for your presence among us today. We are human, and we are afraid. Comfort us, O Gracious Savior. Let our fears be lifted up to you for you are the One who has always been with us in our journey. The promise found in you is mighty and true. May your Spirit lead and guide us delivering all of humankind into moments of divine revelation. In Christ’s name we pray, Amen.

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